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Musings of a sleep deprived Claw
I didn't sleep much last night. Insomnia came to visit and then stayed unwanted until the long hours of the night (or morning) when I finally gave up and kicked it away with a sleeping pill. So I spent the day in a perpetual state of zombiness (I don't care if the word doesn't exist because it should) until about nine thirty in the evening when my brain decided to wake up, my eyes decided to stop stinging and here I am, half past midnight and apparently quite awake.
Which leads me to the point of this post, that isn't as you may have assumed to give you a detailed account of my recent sleeping habits, but to share a few (rambling) thoughts about which Harry Potter house I think I belong to, written in the company of the apparent recurrent and uninvited insomnia.
It started with a simple question posted in a sub-community of![[info]](https://stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
hogwartsishome, where I was sorted a Claw a few months ago: What makes you a Ravenclaw?
I wanted to be a Gryffindor. When I first read the books I really wanted to be one and the more I thought about it the more I realized I had no idea which house I would be placed in.
I wanted Gryffindor because I love Gryffindors. I love the idealism and playfulness and I always wanted to fancy myself as a "saving the world" type. But I'm not. I know this might sound ridiculous - and most of my life's revelations come from simple, seemingly innocuous things - but I can't be a Gryffindor because I can't break a plate.
You know how when some people feel upset they do something rash, like breaking a plate? It's emotional and deeply satisfying and something I've always wanted to do. But once, when I was faced with deep frustration and holding a plate in my hand I kept thinking of the mess that would have to be cleaned, the plate that would have to be replaced and how entirely futile the whole exercise was. Yeah, I over-think things.
So going back to the houses, the only thing I was sure about was that I didn't belong in Slytherin. I'm not good at manipulating people, I can be cunning but I rarely put it into practice and most of all, I have no ambition. And really, at the end of it, it's the ambition that really drives a Slytherin. I like taking things one day at a time, enjoying simple daily things.
Which made me think I could be a Puff. I certainly put other's before myself quite often. I'm laid back, easy going and like to get along with people. One major flaw, though: not hard working at all. I'm lazy and I'm quite happy at making the minimal effort in pretty much everything. Besides, even though I like to think I'm generous and care for people, in the end it's mostly things done ultimately for myself or things that don't require much effort on my part.
Which leads me to Ravenclaw. Here's the thing, I like books, love them and my ideal plan always is curling up with something good to read. However, this isn't the typical "bookish" approach. I like books because they take me to other worlds, I like the stories, I like the escapism. It should come to no surprise that I like movies too. The down side is that they are too short for me. They end to quick, that's why a 800 page good book or a long well written fic are my idea of the best thing in the universe.
But Ravenclaw isn't really all about books or studying. If it were I'm sure I wouldn't have been sorted a Claw for as I said, I'm lazy and that includes studying. I've been blessed though because I usually do pretty well with my bare minimum so I just do that and go back to books and writings and movies.
In the end, it goes back to the plate thing. When confronted with a situation I don't immediately do what my emotions dictate or think of others or think of myself. No, I think of all I can. Where any action would get me, if that's where I want to go, who would be affected, how it would affect me, if it would come to bite me in the ass... I'm notoriously bad at making decisions.
And this is the same thing that allows me to look at a problem and find a quick and practical way to fix it. To procrastinate because I know I'll manage to get things done somehow, to laugh at any random comment because a chain of thoughts has reminded me of a witty line in a story, to not be as involved as I could in emotions, ambitions or even others because there's a whole world going on in my head that tends to distract me more than not.
... To ramble and write a way too long over-thought post to a five word question ^^;;
It's a Claw thing.
So which house are you in?
Which leads me to the point of this post, that isn't as you may have assumed to give you a detailed account of my recent sleeping habits, but to share a few (rambling) thoughts about which Harry Potter house I think I belong to, written in the company of the apparent recurrent and uninvited insomnia.
It started with a simple question posted in a sub-community of
hogwartsishome, where I was sorted a Claw a few months ago: What makes you a Ravenclaw?I wanted to be a Gryffindor. When I first read the books I really wanted to be one and the more I thought about it the more I realized I had no idea which house I would be placed in.
I wanted Gryffindor because I love Gryffindors. I love the idealism and playfulness and I always wanted to fancy myself as a "saving the world" type. But I'm not. I know this might sound ridiculous - and most of my life's revelations come from simple, seemingly innocuous things - but I can't be a Gryffindor because I can't break a plate.
You know how when some people feel upset they do something rash, like breaking a plate? It's emotional and deeply satisfying and something I've always wanted to do. But once, when I was faced with deep frustration and holding a plate in my hand I kept thinking of the mess that would have to be cleaned, the plate that would have to be replaced and how entirely futile the whole exercise was. Yeah, I over-think things.
So going back to the houses, the only thing I was sure about was that I didn't belong in Slytherin. I'm not good at manipulating people, I can be cunning but I rarely put it into practice and most of all, I have no ambition. And really, at the end of it, it's the ambition that really drives a Slytherin. I like taking things one day at a time, enjoying simple daily things.
Which made me think I could be a Puff. I certainly put other's before myself quite often. I'm laid back, easy going and like to get along with people. One major flaw, though: not hard working at all. I'm lazy and I'm quite happy at making the minimal effort in pretty much everything. Besides, even though I like to think I'm generous and care for people, in the end it's mostly things done ultimately for myself or things that don't require much effort on my part.
Which leads me to Ravenclaw. Here's the thing, I like books, love them and my ideal plan always is curling up with something good to read. However, this isn't the typical "bookish" approach. I like books because they take me to other worlds, I like the stories, I like the escapism. It should come to no surprise that I like movies too. The down side is that they are too short for me. They end to quick, that's why a 800 page good book or a long well written fic are my idea of the best thing in the universe.
But Ravenclaw isn't really all about books or studying. If it were I'm sure I wouldn't have been sorted a Claw for as I said, I'm lazy and that includes studying. I've been blessed though because I usually do pretty well with my bare minimum so I just do that and go back to books and writings and movies.
In the end, it goes back to the plate thing. When confronted with a situation I don't immediately do what my emotions dictate or think of others or think of myself. No, I think of all I can. Where any action would get me, if that's where I want to go, who would be affected, how it would affect me, if it would come to bite me in the ass... I'm notoriously bad at making decisions.
And this is the same thing that allows me to look at a problem and find a quick and practical way to fix it. To procrastinate because I know I'll manage to get things done somehow, to laugh at any random comment because a chain of thoughts has reminded me of a witty line in a story, to not be as involved as I could in emotions, ambitions or even others because there's a whole world going on in my head that tends to distract me more than not.
... To ramble and write a way too long over-thought post to a five word question ^^;;
It's a Claw thing.
So which house are you in?