I think what makes this one especially moving is that clause at the beginning - "not even to himself" - followed by the rest of it, the way that Duo knows and doesn't at the same time. Or maybe it's that he knows and doesn't want to know. I love the determination, too, the irrepressible urge to live. Not just to be alive, but to allow for joy wherever you can get it, in however small measure or form; it's all worth it.

Thank you.